So I can’t remember if I’ve talked about this very much, but one of the things I’ve been doing in this past month or two is going to therapy. While it isn’t perfect, it has been a great starting discussion for a lot of things that are going on with my life, one of which has been loneliness.
This has become a real problem for me recently. After I finished my Masters and my internships in London, I moved back up to Coventry to live with my boyfriend who is in his final year at Warwick medical school. (I am SO BAD at living by myself or with strangers, so this was honestly the best decision for my mental and physical health). However, this meant leaving pretty much all of my friends in London. This not only included Masters friends, but friends from my undergraduate as well.
Of course, I’m doing some things with my boyfriend’s friends. We had a games night a couple weeks back, which was really good fun. (I’ve always loved board games, but I’ve never had anyone to play them with!) We’re also going to a comedy night type event at the university, which I’m really looking forward to. But even though I do consider them my friends now…it’s not quite the same.
This isn’t helped by the fact that I’ve just started working from home. While I was at my internships I at least had co-workers to talk to. But now, I’m just kind of floating around aimlessly in my house. And I love my boyfriend, I really do, but I don’t think I should be putting all my happiness on one person.
What’s the solution, you ask? I’m not sure. I would love to do some volunteering at an animal shelter or a library, but I have limited access to transportation. And while my boyfriend is more than happy to drive me places, I am conscious that he’s getting ready for exams and needs to take all the time he can to study. I’m going to try to go to coffee shops to work so I’m at least surrounded by other people. But. I don’t know what else to do.
Does anyone else feel like this? Any suggestions would be appreciated.