#mentalhealthmonday – my romantic relationship

One of the most talked about aspects of mental health, I’ve found, is how a mental health problem could impact romantic relationships. So I thought I would talk specifically about my relationship with my boyfriend Jay, who also has a mental illness. Now, I’m not saying that our relationship is perfect! But we’ve been together for a while now, and we’ve learned a lot. This post will be a bit of a summary of a couple of different conversations: I was going to do it transcript-style but that turned out far too long!

So: we started off talking about how we’ve found it very easy to talk to each other about mental health, because we knew we could trust one another. I told Jay very early on into our relationship about my depression and anxiety (2nd date, if I remember correctly). While this is always a scary thing to do, I kind of knew from the start how caring he was, and figured that this wouldn’t be something to scare him away. At first, Jay found it really difficult not to take my low moods personally. He often worried that he had done something to upset me, when really I was just having a bad day. Now, he knows that 9/10 times my low mood isn’t because of him. The first thing he learned was that you can’t let your own anxieties and insecurities become involved when your partner needs help.

That’s not to say that our own mental illnesses haven’t come into play. Sometimes when Jay is feeling particularly anxious or low, my emotions can get out of control – I break down crying when I should be helping him. Jay finds it easier to shut off his anxiety when I’m upset, though he agrees with me that this isn’t necessarily a healthy thing to do.  So far, though, we’ve been very lucky about our mental ill health overlapping. Neither of us can think of a time when we were both in crisis, and couldn’t help one another. Realistically, we know that this is probably going to happen at some point, but hopefully by then we will have had enough experience in helping each other in normal circumstances.

It has helped in that we know very well what the other person needs. This isn’t something that we’ve really discussed much, but just by learning through trial and error. For example, I need him to be practical. Jay is such a logical person – he can go through my thoughts and beliefs and break them down into manageable, sensible ideas. In contrast, Jay is more in need of emotional support. He needs me to just be there, talking to him so he gets out of his own head. Our mental illnesses impair different things for us – for me, it impairs my daily functioning, whereas for Jay it impairs his general mood. Again, I think we’re lucky in that respect.

To end, here are some top tips from Jay and Wendy:

  1. Communicate! Yes, this is good advice for any sort of relationship, but especially when both partners have mental illnesses. We almost constantly let each other know what is going on, and are checking up on one another. Even when we can’t really do anything to help the other person, being kept in the loop is important. We both know what it is like to worry about someone! For example, a couple of weeks ago I tried an online IM-ing therapy session. Jay wasn’t there, but I sent him a quick text telling him I was going to try it, just so he knew how I was feeling but that I was also trying to do something about it. This constant communication hasn’t always been easy, and we’re definitely still working on it.
  2. Know your limits. We’ve agreed that we will tell one another when it is becoming too much for our own mental health. For example, Jay was feeling very low a couple of months ago, and I felt I had to be constantly on guard to make sure nothing happened to him. Eventually, this started to really wear me down, and he agreed to see his doctor instead of solely relying on me. This really helped us both.
  3. Know your triggers and your partners’. We’ve really tailored things to one another. For example, about a week ago we went to a festival. Jay knows I get quite anxious with crowds and loud noises, so he made sure I was always well fed and hydrated (this has a huge effect on my mental health) and that we could go off into a less crowded area every now and again. Similarly, I know that there are topics of conversation that tend to make Jay feel quite low, so I try to avoid them as much as possible. We haven’t actually sat down and made a list of triggers but again just from knowing each other so well we can anticipate the others’ needs.
  4. Nothing is too small. We do a lot of practical wellbeing things together – we make sure we go for walks, take our meds, and that we’ve eaten. Recently I’ve moved in with Jay for the summer, so we’re preparing lunches for the week.

From what we’ve experienced, it does become easier. Neither of us would say mental illness is a reason not to have a relationship with someone. It’s just a bit more of a learning process.

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4 thoughts on “#mentalhealthmonday – my romantic relationship

  1. christine @ the story salve says:

    This is such a great post! I’m so glad you shared this. You touched on a lot of important stuff. It’s weird for me. My fiance doesn’t really “get” my depression and he’s extremely logical – which is sometimes really helpful and sometimes not. I like that you put communication at the top of that list though. Regardless of whether or not your partner struggles with mental health, communicating what you need at any given point is so important. Most of the time they can’t read our minds, even when we’d want them to. This is definitely something I struggle with, believe it or not. I’ve had so many partners or friends in the past who reacted negatively to my depression, so it’s hard for me to talk about it because I assume my mental health is going to be the breaking point of the relationship. Slowly but surely, I’m working to develop a sense of trust with my current partner; I know I can trust him, but sometimes I just struggle to make myself believe it.

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    • whatthelog says:

      Thanks 🙂 And yup, I get what you mean. It can be incredibly frustrating when the person trying to help you is just…not doing what you need at that moment. Articulating that can be hard, but you’re right, it does need to be done.

      I’ve been very lucky in my personal relationships – pretty much all of my best friends have some sort of mental illness, so they really get it. But I was nervous enough to tell my doctor about my mental health, so I can imagine what it would be like to tell friends and partners. I’m sure you’ll get there with your fiance ❤

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  2. Dina says:

    Wendy, this is such a thought-provoking post. I love it! While I am an aro ace person, I still think relationships with family and friends are also impacted by mental illnesses. It’s good that you two are open about your struggles and your triggers. I think self reflecting helps too, just to recognize what is happening and why you’re reacting to it that way. I’m still learning how to do that and not lash out when people are upsetting me.

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    • whatthelog says:

      Thanks! That’s why I titled it my romantic relationship – I think I might do a couple of other ones about platonic relationships, because you’re totally right, family and friends are impacted too.
      It’s always a learning process 🙂 And you’re already aware that you do that, which is fantastic! ❤

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